Weekend 2 – Yoga Teacher Training

I had to miss half of Weekend 2 due to a wedding, but I knew this when I signed up. I originally debated holding off on taking the course until next year due to this conflict, but I figured there will always be something. And who knows if I will still be living so close to a studio that offers this training, which helps make this commitment manageable for me. I am able to makeup the time by paying for a private session with my current teacher or by attending another YogaWorks training (covering the material that I missed) at a neighboring studio. The closest alternatives for me are Boston or NYC – but in the spirit of trying to experience as many different teachers as possible, I just may do that.

I ended up feeling really guilty about missing part of this past weekend and I could tell that I didn’t have the same drive to do my homework as I did after the first weekend. My class is starting to feel like a little community and I actually missed spending time with my fellow students on Sunday. To get over the hump, I attended a flow class that was taught by our Teacher Training Instructor (Kate) on Thursday. This class was not taught in YogaWorks style, but it still gave me a chance to see her and feel reconnected. And wouldn’t you know it, one of the other students from my class also came – and it happened to be the pilates instructor that I had gotten paired up with during a previous practice teaching! We were happy to see each other and she was sweet enough to say that everyone missed me on Sunday. It was nice.

Kate’s class was challenging, but invigorating. Even though we were moving quickly through parts, I felt myself focusing on my breath and alignment. I was totally PRESENT and I was surprising myself with what I was able to do. Of course, the guy next to me was super bendy, but I kept my mind on my own mat. It’s totally true – if you keep breathing and don’t judge yourself, it’s amazing what your body can do. At the end of class, Kate asked Mr. Bendy where he had taken yoga classes before – I guess because it was his first time at this studio. His answer? “India.” Talk about a mic drop! It made me laugh out loud.

I came home from class that night and dove into my homework. I knocked off four hours of reading and have developed a “flow” for myself: I do my Posture/Teaching Tools reading first and watch any assigned videos, then I dive into Anatomy (the worst!), and then do Philosophy and Language (Sanskrit) last. The Philosophy readings are the most enjoyable part for me and I want to leave myself enough time to mull over what I’ve read before our next session. My BF and I are getting ready to go on a short vacation so I will be reading The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali on the plane. I also have to write an essay about the Sutras that I’ve read and I may post that here if it makes any sort of sense.

Aside from the readings, I have already turned in my Teaching Script homework (we basically get assigned one teaching script each month) and my Anatomy quiz. Do you know the names of the four regions of the spine and their curvature? Do you know that the gluteus maximus rotates the thigh out at the hip joint or extends the thigh out at the hip joint? Fascinating!


The other way I’ve learned to survive the Anatomy reading is to book a blowout and read in the chair. Kate told us to prioritize taking care of ourselves throughout this training because it is so intense, particularly on top of all of our other life obligations, so treating myself to blowouts is my way of taking her advice. But I won’t do it unless I study at the same time – it’s genius! My blowout stylist is getting a kick out of all the anatomy diagrams and we both cringe of images of people with terrible posture; obviously, she can’t help but see what I’m reading. And apparently, she had to study anatomy in hair school as well. I never thought about that before, but it makes sense! I’m just glad that I’m not grossing her out.

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I find myself being hyper aware of my posture now. Some of these illustrations cause me pain just looking at them.

Yoga Teacher Training Homework

Make no mistake, there is a LOT of homework – but Kate was very upfront about that in the info session so I knew what I was getting into. The homework, like class, is kind of jarring in that it bounces around between subjects – Anatomy, History, Language, Discussion, Workshop, and then back again. After the first weekend session, we were assigned about eight hours of reading and one written assignment. I chose which reading assignment to do based on my mood, which thankfully fell into a logical progression. I will try to emulate that in future months. The Anatomy stuff is the most difficult for me and I remember being told to do the most difficult homework first when I was in school, but I left it for last anyway. It just seemed right to lay the foundation of History first and I actually think I was able to absorb some of the Anatomy when I finally got to it.


The other wise thing that I ended up doing by pure accident was to dive right into the reading. Literally on Sunday evening after I got home from my first weekend, I cracked open my books and started reading while everything was fresh. I leveraged the newness and excitement from the weekend to help me stay focused. I knocked off a couple hours that night and now have completed my reading well in advance of the next weekend, but I still have the written assignment to do. In the meantime, I have been trying to attend the classes of different teachers. We are required to take 16 classes in order to receive our certification and YogaBalance offers us 16 classes as part of our tuition if we choose to take them there. That is my home studio anyway, but I tend to go on the same evening every week. In the spirit of learning, I have been branching out and even attended the class of a recent graduate of the same program. It was fun to talk to her and get some encouragement. She told me that she started practice teaching after her second weekend session and offered free classes at her office. I can’t really do that at my day job, but I have some other options that I’m considering. It would be fun to get my feet wet.

Weekend 1 – Yoga Teacher Training

I just completed Weekend 1 of my YogaWorks 200-Hour Yoga Teacher Training. OMG, it’s a LOT of work. Yesterday (Saturday) we were in session from 10am to 5.30pm and today (Sunday) went from 10am to 3.30pm. Anyone who doesn’t take yoga seriously should see all the manuals and required reading! When you are responsible for someone’s safety, it is no joke; we spend hours on Anatomy so we understand (and can ultimately teach) proper alignment. We also study the history of yoga, the Sanskrit language and the Asanas (postures). Of course, we are also students in an actual yoga class for about two hours each day, but the rest is 80% classroom and 20% workshop.

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Surprisingly, I am not completely exhausted. I had still been debating whether this course was the right fit for me, but I had a breakthrough late in the day today when we were “practice teaching” on each other. Just my luck, I got paired with a woman that teaches pilates, so she is already an instructor. Knowing this, I asked her if I could go first so I wouldn’t be intimidated or just end up repeating what she did. I took a deep breath and jumped in. “Let’s stand in mountain pose at the top of our mats…” I couldn’t believe how easily the words were coming out of my mouth.

Then when Kate, our Instructor, had us analyze postures, I was able to appropriately identify a counter move to keep the body in proper alignment while in downward dog. Go me!

Honestly, I still have no idea whether or not I would actually want to teach – but today it felt like more of a possibility. The Anatomy stuff gets very overwhelming (I haven’t really studied the body since high school!) and I’m sure that I look like a deer in headlights during that part. But then we get on our mats and I feel much more confident. If Kate had asked one of us to lead the entire class through a sequence this afternoon, I actually think I would’ve volunteered.

But now, homework. Lots and lots of homework! I will post about that as I dive in.

Thoughts On Pressure

I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to “do” lately. Most of these thoughts haven’t stemmed from my own inner voice – they’re a result of conversations I’ve had and positions I’ve been put in. I have a good job but it is very corporate and when you’ve mastered your responsibilities within such a corporation, there’s an undercurrent of pressure to move up. Sure, I could do more – but at what cost? I am at an age now where I strongly weigh if a job is worth its price tag; a title just isn’t enough. In the cases where I could’ve moved up, there was very little benefit to me personally and I wisely stayed put.

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In my personal life, I had a conversation with a dear friend recently in which she asked me what my plan was. It honestly kind of made me feel bad – as if the life I was living wasn’t good enough. I know she was coming from a place of genuine interest, but I felt judged. As a result, I started spending too much time analyzing my life and wondering if I was giving too much of my energy away instead of using it to propel myself forward.

As much I was was hurt by that conversation, I am thankful for it. All the thinking I did led me to sign up for the yoga teacher training (which starts next weekend, fyi). But I fear that I mainly took that action so that I have a definitive answer to the “what’s your plan?” question. I have something that I’m DOING with my life other than going to work every day and helping out my family as much as I can – I’m studying yoga!

But in the weeks since I signed up for the training and started this blog, I have done even MORE thinking and realized my true answer – my true PLAN.

I just want to enjoy and appreciate life. What’s wrong with that?

Thoughts On Running

I have never been a runner. I have never been very athletic overall – but I have definitely never EVER been a runner. Growing up, I played basketball, which I hated, tennis, volleyball, and softball, which I was actually all fairly good at and liked, and was also a Pop Warner cheerleader – although I was usually a “base” at the bottom of the pyramid, which is not necessarily great for a pre-teen’s self esteem. Needless to say, hardcore cardio work was not for me. I didn’t have the heart strength or the breathing regimen for it. I just always felt like I was drowning every time I had to run.

It’s interesting how much more health conscious kids are today. I worked in a high school for about a year and the kids would actually go to the gym just to GO TO THE GYM. They weren’t even specifically training for anything, like football! And they were certainly more aware of what they were putting in their mouths. I did not grow up like that. I actually liked eating vegetables, but the ones I ate were usually soaked in cheese and butter. It was just a different world and I wish I knew then what I know now so I didn’t have to work so hard to undo the mistakes of my youth.

Twice in my life, I have lost a significant amount of weight. The first was in college: I actually joined a women’s gym one summer (it was kind of like Curves but they had actual food coaches and cardio machines). I went five days a week and dropped 40lbs before going back to school. For the first time since becoming a teenager, I was a single digit size! The entire experience was wonderful. I bonded strongly with the other women even though they were much older than me. They even threw me a birthday celebration with a sugar free ice cream cake. It was awesome.Image result for scaleThe second time was after I relocated from New York to New Hampshire just as I was turning 30. I came up for air and realized that I had put on a lot of weight while immersing myself in my career. I decided to treat this move as a complete life reboot and hired a personal trainer. I had never gone to a regular gym before but I was hopeful that the trainer could help get me over the hump. We had a comfortable rapport and he actually turned out to be a boy that had a crush on me when we were children, but it took us a few sessions to figure it out. He gave me a realistic regimen and I stuck to it, and slowly the weight came back off. I was once again a single digit! Although I fluctuate slightly, I have maintained it for the past 10+ years.

Now I live in a building that has its own gym, so I really have no excuse. The gym is small and the equipment is old, but it has two treadmills, two bikes, an elliptical and some weights. My BF is a runner and we’ll often be in the gym at the same time, him pounding on the treadmill and me on the elliptical or other treadmill with my hand-weights. My heart is in much better condition than when I was a child; I can sustain long periods of cardio activity now, as evidenced by surviving my weekly cardio kickboxing classes. What’s interesting is how all these things in your life can converge and lead you on a new path. The combination of watching my BF run and the breathing techniques I’ve learned from yoga has actually gotten me to consider running myself. One day while speed walking on the treadmill, I literally thought, why can’t I do that? So I just decided to do it. I cranked up the speed higher than I ever had, and I just ran. Not for very long – maybe a half mile – but I still ran.

I wouldn’t say that I actually enjoyed it, but I didn’t hate it either. And I felt like I accomplished something. Every once in awhile, I even do it again. Who is this person?

A Yogic Thought From RHONY

The way you treat me is your path. The way I react is mine.

This is a quote from the Real Housewives of New York. The ladies went on a group trip to Mexico and lots of drunken hilarity ensued, yet they still managed to do yoga every morning. This is something that their instructor said to them during meditation. It resonated with me.